These past two years for me have been hectic and filled with a lot of changes, and that’s probably the reason why time has felt like a blur. It used to be that I could remember exactly what I had for dinner a week ago on a Thursday, but if someone asked me that now, I would probably forget most of the details or mix it up with another day (although recently I’ve been eating pretty much the same frozen meals/chicken so I’d have a 50/50 chance of getting it right). And so I’ve been wondering if there’s a reason why all my days feel like they’re mashed up together, and I came to the conclusion that it’s mainly just the anticipation of graduation that’s the source of my sense of time getting all mangled up.
My degree isn’t a technical degree like computer science or engineering, but it’s still a great degree and the probability of me getting a great job is still high from what I believe. A great job would mean a higher quality of life, being able to enjoy more of my hobbies, take the vacations I’ve always wanted, and have a good amount of worry lifted off my shoulders. I suppose my brain, in anticipation for all those rewards, is mashing up my sense of time until I finally attain what I’ve been waiting for all these years. It’s sort of a mental standstill in other words, and I’m not really sure how I feel about it. On one hand I’m happy that time doesn’t feel like it’s dragging on and my time in school is progressing quickly, but on the other hand I hope this sense of time being a blur doesn’t continue after I’ve finally gotten a job too.
I guess we’ll see soon enough considering I might just be walking the stage this summer. Although, I still have to take one class next semester to officially get my diploma so my “real” job won’t probably start until next year if all goes as planned.
Journey To Japan 